Tuesday, November 22, 2011

the journey, not the end destination.

I am a person who is orientated by goals. I always have a list of goals, small and large, insignificant and significant. Goals give me a reason to do something and I love that. When I was in high school it was to do TEE and get into university. Once I did that it was to graduate and get a full time job and last year I added to that list to graduate on a Distinction average (which for some may seem easy but I have also been juggling a lot of work and a house my entire degree so for me it was huge). Today I got my grades back for this semester. Not only did I do extremely well, but I also got the distinction average I worked so hard for. So today, I complete two of my largest life goals….I am a university graduate with a distinction average. Now this wouldn’t be as scary as it is if I hadn’t already completely my third goal of getting full time employment. ONE WEEK after finishing uni I got offered a full time Event Management position which starts in Jan 2012. So, I have accomplished everything I set out to do in my life within the last five years. Every-single-little-thing. I never thought I would work in event management but it is the most sought after profession within the public relations field and continually I hear people telling me how they want to work in events but won’t be able to do it in Perth so they are going to move over east to fulfil their dreams. So obviously, the obnoxious part of me decided to take the job in a profession I am good at and happened to fall in to.

So now, at 21 I am completely goal-less. I went on a trip to Europe this time last year so my travel bug is satisfied for the next six months at least, I own a house, I graduated university and I found a job….what the hell am I meant to do with myself now?! I know how ridiculous I sound right now, and I know many people think I am being very selfish or unappreciative or whatever, but I have worked my ass off to get to this point so I am allowed to be. So moving forward 2012 is unknown territory to me, I have no more ‘logical’ goals to achieve. I now have the opportunity, for the first time in my life, to make my own goals that aren’t logical and that are completely unknown to me. For the first time in my life I am free. Free in the afternoons, free on the weekends, free to earn as much money as I can, free to focus on what is important to me, free to get my life in order and free to find my place in the world away from education. Don’t get me wrong, I am petrified. I am so scared that my career will consume my life or that I will end up wishing and wasting my life away. I want every single moment in my life to mean something and be for a reason. I want to learn how not to be waiting for something or wishing for something, but learn to be in the moment I am in.

So if you are interested these are my goals for next year. I am no longer making long term goals, no longer wishing it to be a certain time in the future. From now on I am going to plan and make goals for now and for the short term future. I want the journey, not the end destination.

  • Put everything I can into building my career.
  • Finish my house renovations and turn our house into a home.
  • Learn a second language; French or Italian I don’t care.
  • Read. Read anything and everything I can.
  • Have a healthy life; inside and outside, mentally and physically I want to learn a sustainable way to become as healthy as I can be.
  • Become financially secure again
  • Travel; whether it is a road trip or one of the many planned trips I have planned…I just want to see the world.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Moving Forward.

So for the first time in a very long time I feel my life is back on track. I know where I'm heading, I know where I want to be and I know how to get it. I find comfort in organisation. To me, having an idea of what I am doing with myself helps me to stay focused. I am not a person who can do nothing, I am not a person that can take months 'having time off'. I know what I want in life and I know what I need to do to achieve these things. I love that.

As of January 9, I will be an Event and Auction Manager. Though events is never a field I would have seen myself going in to, now that I am here I love it. I still really want to travel, and I am hoping to do a couple of month long trips within the next year or two before taking off for an extended period of time. In my mind, I would rather work within the industry I am building a career in than in some random job to save money. The world is so big and beautiful and there is no way I don't want to see it all.

For the first time in a long time, I feel I really have things to look forward too. For the first time in I would almost say a year, things are finally starting to go good for me. I can't wait for next year. I feel this year has been so terrible but I have such hope that next year will be better. A new year brings new beginnings and there is nothing I need more than a new beginning right now!