Change is in the air.

I don't know if it's a bad thing, but I find the easiest way for me to get a huge rush of excitement in life is to completely and utterly change something. Never something physical like a dramatic hair cut and never something where I know what I am walking in too. Its like walking off a cliff and not knowing I have something there supporting me to keep me up and safe. I am finding, it's that time again. That time to just walk in to the utter unknown with absolutely no knowledge of what's ahead.

An example of this in the past was early-mid 2008. That's the first time I did it. The first time I cut all my losses and made a radical change. Firstly, I changed university degree. Most people would see this as something which is not a big deal, but for me it was HUGE. My life was planned since age 7- go to university, study Journalism and life would be great. After coming to the realisation three months in to my degree that a Journalism degree was a joke and my heart wasn't in to it, I quit. A business degree seemed to make more sense. So thats exactly what I did, a business degree. I thought at the time, seeing as I was already making such a big change, why not take six months off univeristy too? So I did that as well. At the time I HATED that decision. I hated working so much, I hated being so different to my friends, but I loved being so free and rich. Instantly I wanted to go back to school, go back to learning, but in hind sight it was and still is the best decision I have made in my life. I realised going straight from high school to university keeps you in a little bubble and I was sick and tired of that bubble. I watched my friends, blissfully in their bubbles not needing money for more than a shopping spree and getting drunk during nights out. Though a part of me envied their bubbles, I realised (after a lot of time and acceptance) that I am not a person who can waste all my money on something so pointless, so I made another decision. I moved out of home.

The rush of these changes in 2008 kept me going until now. Same time of the year 2010, it seems I am doing it again, brewing up these decision in my mind. So some you will have to wait and see because I am not ready to share them with the world. But others I have done and I think I am making the right decision. I am indefinently going part time to university. Why? Because I said so, because I want too, because I am going to spend a month in Europe with my lover man over Christmas and New Years and that doesn't come cheap. A part of me is a little jealous to see people leaving univeristy around me, but the bigger part of me remembers though I am behind in the normal sense (eg. finishing university) I am ahead in the life sense (eg. home owning, pet buying). So it balances out, or so I am going to tell myself.

So watch this space. Its like the calm before the storm. I can feel the change coming, I can feel myself needing to do it. I don't know what yet, but it's gonna be something. Then, in a few more years maybe I will make another, even bigger change...who knows.