Nostalgia.

How is it already July? Seriously, where has this year gone! It is all downhill from July, because then it's August which is the month before September and therefore my birthday. Then I am 20, which though young...it’s downhill from there because I will be saying good bye to my teenage years and saying hello to adulthood. I'm not really an adult. Like I am legally and physically...oh and my life is very adult like...but to me and in my head I am still a child.

I find lately I keep getting all nostalgic about the past five years of my life. 15-20 really has been a chapter. So much has happened, so much has changed, yet I feel like I actually still 15. I can bring myself back to that time so quickly, I remind myself of the times I would stay up all night speaking to Jesse on myspace and msn (YAY MSN!) listening to Kanye West Addiction or walking what seemed like a million miles from my house in Greenwood to Kelly’s house in Duncraig and everywhere in between. Or the time we went to the movie marathon and thought it would be a good idea to walk home to Kelly’s from Warwick after the final movie and getting home at the same time her mum was getting ready to leave for work. I find myself remember little things, which at the time I never realised how big of a memory they would become. Like the time Jesse and I woke up in the early early hours of the morning (4AM/5AM) in our respective houses and walked to the bridge which was in the middle of the two houses and then went back to mine and went to bed just so we could wake up together. I have more recent favourite memories of spending the morning at the beach with Amanda and Phylicia and then going back to Amanda's and pretty much not getting out of the pool to the sun goes down and it being so hot that the pool was pretty much a bath.

The smallest memories become so special when you look back on them. I don't know why I seem to be stuck in the past at the moment but I am. I wish my life was just filmed and I could rewind and watch things again like they are a movie.