A New Year?

So, it comes to that time of year again when the year in winding down we all start contemplating our previous resolutions and begin to wonder what the following year is going to bring. New Years eve going in to 2010 I spent it alone with Jesse at Kings Park. They say what your doing on New Years eve is meant to be a reflection for the year to come. Well if last year is to go by I agree. Spending it alone with Jesse and not at a night club was probably one of the best decisions I have made. Though I love (loved) to drink and dance, it seems I am becoming increasingly content with spending nights at home and quiet drinks at friends houses or one-on-one in a small bar. Maybe I am getting old? I can't drink like I used too. When I first turned 18 Amanda and I would spend many nights out dancing and drinking. Now days, though I go out on occasion I find a) I am either pretty much sober, or embarrassingly drunk and b) more often than not, I would rather be at home with my mister in our little bubble. Is this possibly a reflection of the new years eve we had?

I don't know if 2010 was a good year, I wouldn't go as far as calling it amazing or spectacular, but it wasn't bad either. There was a number of highs (ie. I am sitting in my hotel room in France as I write this) and a number of lows (ie. The loss of Jason, I don't need to say more). The best thing about this year is I have grown to know what is important to me and who matters most. I haven't been a huge 'friend' person, but this year I have managed to narrow down the people in my life to a group of 3 'best' (my hatred for that word is another post I might share with you all at another time) or 'closest' friends and a small number of other people who I enjoy spending my time with. I have my family, who are the most important in my life and who I would do anything for and finally I have Jesse, who after 5 years together, now heading to 6 has become my other half and finally after all this time I feel our level of comfort has made this relationship the one I want to spend the rest of my life in with out any doubt.

2010 was filled with school, work, travel, mini holiday with Amanda, death, tears, joy and happiness. I am happy it is over, because I have a good feeling for 2011. I am heading back to uni full time, I don't have a job and I am surrounded by only the people I truly want in my life. I think every and any year can become a defining year in your life and for me 2010 was a year to remember. Not for any spectacular reason, but 2010 was the year that taught me so much. It taught me the importance of friendship, family and commitment and most importantly taught me the importance of life and how easily it is lost.

On another note, tomorrow is our final day in France. We head over to Barcelona first thing in the morning on the following day. It's an 8 hour train ride and I am running out of my book to read. Still no luggage, we probably aren't following up on it as much as we should, but realistically we don't care. We have each other and we are seeing some of the most beautiful things, our luggage will find us eventually. To be honest, I am missing home a little bit, mainly because everyone seems to be having such a good time without me, but this is an experience I will never forget. One thing I have learnt is never to unappreciate the warm weather ever again!

So if the way you spend New Years eve is a reflection of your upcoming year, I am spending it in Barcelona, with the boy I love more than anything in the world and plan to spend every day for the rest of my life with. Does that mean I will have another year like 2010? I sure hope so. As for a New Years resolution? I don't have one, but I expect 2011 is going to be my year for growing up. My year for settling down, maybe focus on my future a little more than I have been doing. It's the year I am (hopefully) going to finish uni, (hopefully) find a 'real' job and will be spending with the small group of amazing people I want to be spending my time with. I am excited.