Ready To Go.

I strive for simplicity in my life. The best people in my life are the effortless ones; my two best friends, my boyfriend, my family. In the past nine months I have truly gained an understanding of what is important in life and what isn't. I no longer thrive off drama, I no longer consider myself argumentative. I focus my limited time and energy on the right people in my life, not the wrong ones. I forgive easier than I ever have before, yet I value never forgetting. I've grown. I know what I value and what is important to me. I have gained life lessons I never new I needed to gain. I am finally at a point of acceptance of the bad things which have happened to me and the people I love. I know I can't change things out of my control, and I accept that I can't make that change and I move on. Recently I have come to realise that I was lucky to last until I was 21 without facing death face on. I don't feel sorry for myself or the people around me who have lost someone so amazing, I feel proud we have learnt to accept it and grow from the experience. I pity the people who are yet to experience the loss of someone who impacts their lives so profoundly because I know the pain which they are yet to face. I hate the situation, I hate the impact of death and I often stop and go 'shit, if he was here this would be different' but it no longer consumes my life.

I look forward to the future. I don't worry for the people I love, because I know they will continue surviving this situation. I am moving forward a strong, more mature and centered person. I am at peace with the idea of simplicity and I don't want people in my life who will bring me down. Life is so short. I value love and the people who I love. My biggest fear is something happening to the people I love, but I accept fate is out of my control. I harbour no hatred for the past. I focus on bettering myself and moving forward. I know there is nothing I can't achieve.

For the first time in a long time, I have come to realise that I am going to be okay.